“…made her more of a woman.” — were you singing that Selena Gomez song too as you were reading the title of this post?
Well, if you weren’t, that’s okay. I’m not a big Selena fan by any means, to be honest. That line from her song, “Look at Her Now”, stood out to me, though, the first time I heard it.
“Not saying she was perfect. Still regret that moment. Like that night, was it wrong, was it right? What a thing to be human. Made her more of a woman.”
I am used to accepting my own humanity; the good, the bad, and the ugly.
If you have known me personally in some capacity, it might seem like I make excuses for myself all the time, and that I justify a lot of my bad behaviors. But the truth is, more often than not, I am just tired of beating myself up whenever I realize that I have made a mistake.
Because the truth is, in the words of Jonathan McReynolds:
“The hurt are hurting
And the broken are breaking
And the ones who had their joy taken away
Are out here taking from other”
We’ve all hurt and been hurt by others. As much as we try to play the victim, we’ve also been the villain in somebody else’s story.
I wish knowing what’s right was enough.
I wish praying was enough.
I wish loving God was enough.
On my best days, I could be feeling so connected to God and whole, and yet so prone to the deadliest sins at the same time.
I could know all the Biblical principles about marriage and wanting to have an affair at the same time.
Life is tricky. Being human is tricky. Feelings are tricky. But you know what these three things have in common? They’re all real and you can’t run away from them no matter how hard you try.
I’ll leave you with these two songs that best communicate this idea.
Take heart. Better days are coming. You’re only human.