What Makes Your Heart Dance?

Not too long ago, one of my friends told me that —> in passing, one of our old friends had made a comment on the fact that I have done so many things with my life.

But not in a good way.

It was more like, “Dang, Deb does everything. She is doing the most,”-type thing.

Like I lack focus and I am trying to be everything.

I’m not mad at that, because there’s a lot of truth in that statement.


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I have tried sooooooo many different career paths and businesses and hobbies!!!

I have taken voice lessons, guitar lessons, screenwriting courses, and dance lessons. I have sold dumplings, decorated parties, and done voiceovers for a few commercials. And let’s not forget my Etsy and Shopify stores that I launched in 2016!


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I have also made a short movie with only 5 crew members and it was one of the most taxing processes I have even gone through in my life! I cried a lot and got insecure often during the whole process. At the end of it all, I decided to not show the movie to anyone.

I care about movies a lot and I wanted to “make it” as a filmmaker so badly, that I couldn’t bear the shame of making a bad movie. As if no director has ever made a bad movie ever, in their life.


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That’s how passionate I am about ideas that I care about, though! They consume me.

When I get an idea, I’d usually daydream about it, play it in my head like a broken record, and depending on my financial situations —> I’d usually jump in and do it!

I love that about me. I love that I am brave enough to give things a try.

But more often than not, I am faced with that same comment that I opened this blog post with, “Deb is doing the most.”

Am I though?


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Recently, I had the opportunity to visit the newly re-opened, Crow Museum of Asian Art to check out the multi-year series, Divine Spark by Tokyo-born and Dallas-based artist, Kana Harada.

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As soon as I stepped into the exhibit area, I was greeted by Harada’s colorful, intricate yet simple pieces that are part of the collection. And as I walked further into the room, I saw the artist herself standing by one of her beautiful artworks.

We had the chance to chat after the opening remarks made by the museum rep, and I am grateful that our brief interaction inspired me so much!

Scroll down and be inspired too. 🙂


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What inspired you to create the Divine Spark series?

She said something like, “Last year when the pandemic hit, I decided to look inward and search for the light that is within all of us. That light inspired me to create the pieces in this series.”

How did you look inward? Last year was a LOT for all of us!!!

“I have made it a practice to always look inward and find that light.”

Do you create art and then have the ability to look inward or do you look inward and then have the ability to create art in the midst of chaos?

“Both.”

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Why these shapes, colors, and textures?

“They make my heart dance. They just came out as I was creating.”

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Whoa, did you catch that????

“They make my heart dance” ????

This got me thinking: What makes my heart dance??

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I have done so many things with my life. Does that mean I am inconsistent? Is it possible to have SO MANY THINGS that make your heart dance?

Was there meant to be just ONE thing that makes my heart dance? If yes, what is it???


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This question has bothered me since I was very young! And I’m sure I’m not alone!

Most of us were taught that we all have this unique set of talents that align with our purpose on earth. For some reason, as we get older, we think the intersection of our talents and purpose should translate into a steady career that makes us money.

Was there meant to be just one thing that aligns with your purpose and set of talents? The thing that makes your heart dance?

What if our career is not equal to what makes our heart dance and our purpose? What if it’s just a chapter in our story?

What if there isn’t just ONE thing for everyone?


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But of course, we want the certainty.

I mean, wouldn’t it be nice to be like Whitney Houston, Denis Villenueve, and Dave Chappelle?

With the immense talents that these artists have, you just know that that they were born to do what they do/did well while they’re on earth.


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I mean, can you imagine Whitney doing anything else with her life other than singing? Like being a pediatrician or something?

Or Denis Villenueve, one of my favorite directors, being an accountant instead of making mind-blowing movies like Arrival, Sicario, and Blade Runner 2049?


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And Dave Chappelle — thank God he didn’t end up being an architect!! Otherwise we wouldn’t be blessed with his hilarious social commentaries and iconic, quotable jokes! 3 A.M in the ghetto is still one of my favorite bits. And also, the whole Bill Cosby thing?? Hilarious! He addresses difficult topics in such a unique way. That’s talent.


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But see, I am not one of them.

I love too many things and I am pretty good at a few things. A jack of all trades and a master of some, I am.

I have tried many things in my life and a lot of them actually made my heart dance at one point in time. Some of them still do.

What are people like me meant to do with our lives?


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To be honest, if you ask me, everything I love makes my heart dance.

This begs a question: What if life itself is actually the thing that makes my heart dance?

What if figuring it out is what gives me joy?

Maybe I am not one of those people who know for sure what they need to do with their lives and stick with it forever.

If you’re like me, maybe just maybe…

We are meant to find beauty, lessons, healing and growth in figuring things out. Messy, embarrassing, fulfilling and all!

I’ll leave you with these words by Jon Bellion:

I guess if I knew tomorrow, I wouldn’t need faith
I guess if I never fell, I wouldn’t need grace
I guess if I knew His plans, He wouldn’t be God

So maybe I don’t know,
But maybe that’s okay

Listen to the full song here.

Love y’all!

-Deb

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